Dimension Army: The Private Assembly (Chp.1 Pt. 1) I sat alone on one of the many benches outside the high school building, my head rushing with anxiety. My hands where shaking, today was the day every child wondered what held. I ran my shaking finger tips across the smooth turquoise plastic seat of the bench. I reached into my bag, and pulled out the calming medicine and popped a few more of them. I tilted my head back and breathed in the air and felt the rush of calm chills run through me. I loved the immediate effect the medicine had. I ran my fingers through my short silky black hair, and decided it was probably time that I went inside. My bag was filled with books from work the previous night so I had to go to my locker first. I slowly walked to the door and opened my eye wide for the retina scanner. The white doors turned green with a long beeping noise. I walked in and headed for my locker. For some reason I loved walking in heels. It gave me the feeling of beauty and importance, hearing the sound o
I'm So Mean But I Don't CareYou have been around so long you feel like home
But I have let go of home and ran away.
I am nothing like a perfect person
Shared my lips and sweet words with a few.
I used to think that made me a heartless human monster.
But you used me, because I was a stupid child who craved acceptance.
And I used you, because I craved your attention.
You disgust me, and I no longer disgust myself.
I can honestly say sometimes I despise you.
I no longer feel sorry for you and feel I'm being unfair.
You used my body, and you took advantage of my stupidity and naiveness.
When he held me close I felt something I never felt with you.
I felt love, not falseness.
I want to step on your heart and watch it bleed,
for taking advantage of me.
You had no real feelings for me don't act like you did.
You had only lust.
So don't even act like your heart is broken.
I want to be free
Please just let me go.
BreakHow do you gently break a heart
Of someone you just might love?
A love full of broken promises and immaturity
So long has he held me
My heart is broken because I can't break his
I think of how he makes my blood boil
I want him gone
I think of times he made my heart dance
I never want him to leave
He makes me so angry
GuardianPeople surround me but alas I am lonely.
I feel as if I burdon them, they don't want me around.
I keep quiet for fear that I will loose them as I have lost many others.
They don't know, and they never will.
He rids the loneliness, he is always there.
A guardian and a friend
When my guardian is with me I can't be sad
He is the only one in which I can confide.
Some would call us childish
more I than he.
But I don't care, I love him.
But no one can know about him.
No one can see him walk beside me, but I.
Death took him and gave him to me.
He is with me, and I refuse to believe otherwise
I hope and pray he is not a game my mind plays.
I see him with my mind but crave to see him with my eyes.
I want to touch his face and feel that he is with me.
Without him I would never rise again.
He must never leave me, this I pray.